A Whole New World
Welcome to my blog where you can find my random thoughts, what I experience and feel, lyrics of songs I like, little poems by me, some writings I quote from books or blogs I read, and everything you might want to know about me.
Wednesday 21 September 2022
Sunday 21 August 2022
over the moon - Arash Buana
Lovina Beach, 2022 |
Here is a song I've been listening to lately and I keep playing it over and over again.
Verse 1Sunday 28 November 2021
An Unfinished Business: I Forgive You
Okay. I never write about this before, never write about him. But DMs from him this afternoon makes me decide to write this, for the first time - maybe also for the last time.
A boy from my past, my very first boyfriend, sent me messages on my Instagram. He was saying something which I didn't expect he would say that after 10 years had passed (yup we were on 11th grade). He said sorry for what happened in the past in our relationship. Everything was just going so fast at that time (we didn't even have a picture together lol). We didn't even know exactly what had happened and how to handle it. We broke up and never contacted to each other. I met him once actually but we pretended like nothing ever happened between us and choose not to talk to each other.
He has been ignoring to talk about this for the last 10 years and today he finally find the courage to say it. I replied him with the same sorry because I think there must be a moment or two which I hurt him either by words or actions. Then we forgive each other, again after 10 years.
It's almost impossible to happen but it happened. Well maybe this is just the right time to happen :)
Are we going to start it all over again? I guess no because we know we are a different person after years and didn't mean to each other.
So, thank you for reading this, reader. I will close this with a sentence: people come into your life for a reason, they're either a blessing or a lesson.
taken from: boldomatic.com |
Tuesday 31 August 2021
Kewalahan
Wednesday 7 July 2021
Terakhir Didengar
Tuesday 1 June 2021
Being Alone
Hai, guys.. Pernah merantau nggak? Kalau pernah, kapan? How long? Ke luar kota atau ke luar negeri? Rasanya gimana?
Nggak kerasa aku udah 3 tahun 1 bulan berada di kota lain, jauh dari orangtua, adik-adik, dan anjingku. Nggak kerasa. Sebelum ada pandemi, aku pulang kampung 1 bulan sekali. Setelah pandemi sempat nggak pulang beberapa bulan dan saat ini nggak tentu pulangnya berapa bulan sekali. Soalnya takut juga kalau keseringan pulang virusnya nggak tahu ada di mana. Udah gitu sejak nggak pulang berbulan-bulan due to pandemic, uang lebih yang aku punya bisa aku investasikan di reksadana dan bisa aku tabung untuk dana darurat. Happy banget kalau lihat cuan yang didapat. Jadi semangat safe dan invest money. Sekarang kalau mau pulang biasanya aku usahakan ambil cuti jadi nggak rugi cuma sehari-semalam doang pulangnya. Sekarang juga jam keberangkatan kereta terbatas baik ke dan dari Jogja. Plus harus keluar uang ekstra untuk genose atau antigen. Sempurnalah niatku untuk nggak sering-sering pulang. Hehe..
Anyway, aku mau share apa yang aku rasakan setelah 3 tahun merantau. Satu aja. Mungkin kalian ada yang merasakan juga. As year passed by aku merasa nyaman hidup sendiri. I can do anything and I can go anywhere I want. Aku ngurus diri aku sendiri dan memastikan aku cukup kuat menghadapi semuanya di kota orang. Lama-lama rasanya beneran jadi independent woman. At the same time aku takut sangking nyamannya hidup sendiri, aku merasa nggak butuh orang lain. I mean I still need others untuk sharing, untuk escaping for a while, untuk minta pendapat mereka. Tapi untuk berpikir punya pasangan dan married life dalam waktu dekat rasanya no, not yet. Aku nggak pengen terikat sama relationship dulu. I already broke up with someone that I adore so much since I was in college tbh. And now I don't feel the urgency to find someone new because I enjoy the privilege of being alone. I'm free admiring someone I like although I know we can't be together for some reasons (but in this case, I also pray to God if it's possible to be, please show me the way. Hahaha..). I hope God give me the right person in His time. You know what, a few years ago someone gave me a tarrot reading and she said that I will get married at the age of 27. I was turning 27 last month so this year probably will be the year. Omg. I'm not ready yet, but I also curious about this kind of things - the tarrot reading and the right person. Well wherever you are, my half, I hope you'll find a way to meet me soon.
Ehehehe. maap ya jadi pakai Bahasa Inggris. Sengaja sih, siapa tahu ternyata orangnya nggak bisa Bahasa Indonesia. Wkwkwk.. pardon me. Yah.. pokoknya paham, kan? Baru ini lho, aku share kayak gini. Hehehe..
Aku butuh teman-temanku, papaku, mamaku, adik-adikku, anjingku untuk mengisi hari-hariku. Kadang aku bersikap cuek atau ketus ke mereka, tapi habis itu nyesel sendiri. But I love them so much. Nggak bisa bayangin gimana hidupku tanpa mereka :')
Ya sudah, ya. Segini dulu. Semoga kalian semua baik-baik saja di manapun membaca tulisan ini.
Thank you.